Susan wrote, “I’d love to hear you talk about what it feels like when you fall in love, and how you show it. How do you let the guy know? What is different about your behavior? Are there ways you let the guy know you love him other than saying it?”
What does it feel like? What did I say to him? Here are some excerpts of what I had written to my husband as I was falling in love with him. Get ready for mushiness!
Even though you do it so often, it still startles me that you can see with such clarity inside me, my mental and emotional states — and, inside my soul, if I should use that word.
With you, I feel like our spirits are close all the time. It is so peaceful at the same time that it is invigorating and exhilarating. I feel like you make me feel a greater truth. Only, when you say “Love is light,” it doesn’t even feel like truth… it feels like something I’ve always known, and totally natural for you to be expressing it, a feeling of familiarity and “hey, I know this.”
I feel so grateful to be alive… to have met and been touched, if only metaphorically, by someone as brilliant and kind as you. There is so much of the world to see and learn and discover! When I moved out, I felt like I want to do more of that, but I didn’t know how I would go about it. I still don’t really know, but I know that I want to do this with you, at least with as much practicality as I can muster.
I read something last year that goes, “When you really love someone it will be A to B. Not A to D to B to C.” Previously, it’s been the latter. Part of that is definitely my own fault. I was not ready; I did not put in the work necessary on myself. But with you, I feel like we are both prepared for this journey, and that it will be going from A to B, and maybe even beyond. I feel like we both trust each other and have placed our hearts in the other for safe keeping. And I don’t want to hurt you, though our human flaws will surely mean that we will hurt each other inadvertently. But being both healers, maybe we can mend those wounds as well…
I feel like my love for you will only grow with time, which is why I feel also that I can wait. I’ve already waited for a long time… and I know that what I feel now is only a small bud compared to what I shall feel for you when our love is in full bloom.
What I feel from you is a bright, shining light, so full of love, wisdom and purity, and I am totally energized by it. I also feel so close to you, like our souls have already met. I hope that everyone will find a love like this. This is such a new feeling to me, and it is so wonderful. :)
I’m feeling so ridiculously happy. I’m sitting at my desk with a huge smile because I got to hear your voice. Even just hearing your voice on your voicemail made me want to reach through the phone and touch the man behind that wonderful voice. I am so in love with you. It continues to amaze me how much love you have filled me with, and how it overflows to the rest of my life. Whenever I feel down, all I have to do is think about that aspect of my life in which you exist, shining as a source of eternally brilliant and wonderful love, and the warmth of that light fills me over the brim.
I love you with all my heart. I will always love you.