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2012
4
Feb
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I am in full pregnancy brain mode. I actually forgot Valentine’s day was February 14th. I was so preoccupied with February 13th, the day of my first ultrasound and OB appointment, that the day after had completely slipped my mind. Although, C and I both got each other Valentine’s Day gifts early this year, so [...]
2012
25
Jan
Pregnancy is marked by weeks and weeks of a slow, anxious and sometimes agonizing wait. It is often said that pregnancy lasts 9 months. Aside from the shortest months, each month contains about 4 and half weeks. The weeks of pregnancy are counted from the first date of last menstrual period (LMP), and the expectation [...]
2012
18
Jan
Last night I had a dream about our son who was born without a heartbeat last year on January 19. He had most likely left us some time between January 17 and 18, or a year ago last night. It was not a sad dream. In the dream, I saw and felt glowing in the [...]
2012
15
Jan
Last night, I got a positive home pregnancy test result. Today, I became paranoid about having a false positive, so I tested again, this time following the instructions exactly. Both times showed a faint second line. And, my period has not started. So I can cautiously say that I am most likely pregnant! :)
2012
14
Jan
It’s still too early to tell for sure, but I have a feeling that I’m pregnant. Technically my period isn’t supposed to come until tomorrow. I started feeling cramps on Wednesday the 11th, which made me think I was getting my period early. But it still hasn’t come, and instead of the typical pre-menstrual symptoms, [...]
2012
7
Jan
Yesterday, as we were filling a prescription at the pharmacy, my husband made the joke that with all the paperwork he had to sign, he felt like he was signing his life away. The pharmacist, a young fellow who couldn’t have been out of pharmacy school for very long, continued the joke, and said, “Yeah, [...]
2011
15
Dec
You know that feeling that you get when you hear something that you should be happy about, but that actually hurts you, and there’s this tightness right in your chest, permeating to you stomach, a pain down to your core, and there’s nothing you can really do except smile and pretend that everything’s fine? Yeah, [...]
2011
30
Nov
I’ve been feeling pissy. Maybe I’ve passed through the denial and sadness phases of grief and getting into the anger phase. I am just pissed off at things, events, other people, myself, the little inconsequential issues that I normally would shrug off but that have just been building. I’m pissy that I still get a [...]
2011
21
Nov
It’s holiday season again, and I’m sad again. It’s been almost a year. Last year around this time, I was in my third trimester, obviously pregnant, and feeling so optimistic about the future. We were in the final stages of preparing for our first child. Little Liam. It hurts to type his name. It hurts [...]
2011
8
Nov
It is said that if a person stops doing basic personal grooming, like brushing the hair, clipping the nails, and tweezing the brows, that person is very close to giving up entirely on life. In the past year or so I’ve drifted in and out of this emotional funk. Though I’ve always felt like I’m [...]