A Journey of Hope

33 weeks again

Baby, Life

I am 33 weeks pregnant again.

The last time I was this far along was with Liam. I am re-experiencing all of the old symptoms — difficulty sleeping, walking, and persistent headaches. I am also experiencing lots of pelvic pain and lots of baby movement, much more so than last time. He likes to hiccup at least once a day, which is very cute.

Our little bean has grown bigger, and his kicks have gotten quite strong. I imagine what he looks like, try to figure out how he’s laying in my belly, what he’s doing when I feel him poking out from within me, and think and dream for the future. It’s hard to think about much else, and sometimes I feel guilty when I get preoccupied by other things. That’s when a big movement kicks my mind back to him.

I have weekly nonstress tests, during which I am hooked up to a machine that monitors the baby’s heartbeat. For half an hour I sit in the clinic at the hospital, listening to his little heart beating away rhythmically. These tests are called “nonstress,” but somehow they stress me out every time. I think it’s the acknowledgement that I am considered “high risk” and therefore need to come in for these tests.

My emotions are all over the place. This morning I woke up tired, unhappy and grumpy. My temper was on a much shorter fuse than normal, and things that otherwise wouldn’t annoy were bothering me. As the day went on I became more and more stressed. I just want everything to go smoothly, and I want to have a healthy baby.

As I get closer to being full term, I am also becoming more anxious. I just have to remind myself to breathe and relax, and to be grateful that I am carrying our little boy for a while longer.

6 Responses

  1. An Unmarried Man

    Good luck. I’ve been reading and I’m rooting for you :)

  2. You’re in the final stretch, Hope. My continued thoughts and prayers go with you.

  3. Thanks An Unmarried Man and J.

  4. Hang in there everything will be alright. Blessings, positive thoughts and prayers.

  5. I found this image cute. http://www.barnorama.com/best-girlfriend-ever/

    It reminded me of your hubby and you. Hope you like it! :)

  6. Thanks Ancaona. That was a cool card. :)

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